Known by Being Known

Psalm 139

Who are you, really?

In an age where we curate versions of ourselves through social media and struggle under the weight of comparison, Psalm 139 offers us something far more grounding than image or achievement: the soul-deep truth that we are fully known and deeply loved by God.

This isn’t abstract theology. It’s intensely personal. The God who made the stars also sees you when you lie awake at night, thoughts spinning. He knows every word on your tongue before you speak it, every fear and joy behind your silence. He knows your history, your path, your comings and goings, as a companion. Like a hand gently cupped around a marble about to roll off the table, God’s presence hems us in, protecting us from ourselves and from a world that often forgets our worth if we’ll let him.

This kind of knowing can feel frightening. What if God sees what I’m trying to hide? What if He’s disappointed?

And yet, the Psalmist reminds us that God’s gaze is not a spotlight of shame, but the steady light of love. The One who saw you in the womb and spoke you into existence also sees the parts of you that feel unfinished or unworthy and calls them “wonderfully made.” What would happen if we saw ourselves that way? If instead of chasing approval, we rested in the truth that we were handcrafted with purpose?

Even in moments of pain or confusion, when we might want to flee, we discover we cannot outrun the God who pursues us, to lead us home. Like the poet Malcolm Guite writes, “You search me out and lay your hand upon me,” not to constrain, but to steady and guide.

Perhaps the most freeing realization is this: when we open ourselves to the God who knows us completely, we begin to know ourselves truly. We don’t have to pretend, or pose, or self-promote. We are free to live honestly, courageously, and joyfully, secure in the care of the One who knows us best—and still chooses us.

As George MacDonald, said, “I would rather be what God chose to make me, than the most glorious creature that I could think of. For to have been thought about—born in God’s thoughts—and then made by God, is the dearest, grandest, most precious thing in all thinking.”.  

To be known by God is not merely comforting. It is transforming.

Let yourself be seen. And in being known, come to truly know the One who loves you.

A Fresh Start with Genuine Change

Psalm 51

We’ve all had moments we wish we could take back – decisions made in frustration, choices shaped by pride, mistakes that leave us feeling burdened with guilt. Whether in small ways or significant ones, we all experience the reality of sin in our lives. So, what do we do when we’ve truly blown it?

Psalm 51, written by King David after his greatest personal failure, offers hope for all who long for a fresh start. David’s story is one of disastrous consequences, but also one of divine grace. Instead of denying his failures, he appeals to God’s steadfast love, confessing his sins and asking God to make his heart clean once again.

That deep renewal that reaches the heart is something we all need. It’s more than behavior modification or trying harder next time. It’s real transformation.

A vivid picture of this renewal comes from the classic film “Mary Poppins”. The rigid, unfeeling Mr. Banks, once consumed by his career, is utterly changed. His turning point happens after he’s discharged from the very profession he staked his identity in. That loss broke him. Yet, in one of the most memorable scenes in the movie Mr. Banks is genuinely smiling and joining his children in a chorus of “Let’s Go Fly a Kite”. As he does so, his top hat is busted, his collar torn, and tie disheveled.

David’s sin had real and irreversible consequences, just as Mr. Banks experienced. Yet, just as Mr. Banks found freedom in his brokenness, David could ask God to restore joy where his sin had crushed him, because only God has the power to do that.

That’s the kind of renewal David seeks in Psalm 51. He prays, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” And that’s the kind of renewal available to us when we turn to God. As British preacher Martin Lloyd-Jones once said, “You and I must never look at any sin in our past life in any way except that which leads us to praise God and magnify His grace in Christ Jesus.”

No sin is too great, no failure too deep. God stands ready – arms open – to embrace us when we turn to Him. He can take our lowest moments and use them for our benefit – to change us. If you ever forget that, just look to the cross of Christ.

Psalm 27 and the Fight Against Anxiety

Anxiety is an ever-present struggle—one that can grip us in uncertainty, fear, and exhaustion. But in Psalm 27, King David offers a different approach to fear, one that transcends mere positive thinking or self-help strategies.

David begins with a bold declaration: “The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?” His circumstances are dire. Enemies surround him, false accusations tarnish his name, and even the heartbreak of parental rejection weighs heavy. Yet, instead of dismissing his fears, David confronts them head-on.

Unlike the common advice to minimize worries, David acknowledges the worst—armies encamped against him, war on the horizon. And yet, he remains confident. His strength doesn’t come from wishful thinking but from anchoring himself in the presence of God.

David’s singular focus—the “one thing” he desires above all—is to dwell in God’s presence. Not just in a ritualistic sense, but in an intimate relationship. This is the peace that surpasses understanding. When fears arise, David turns his gaze toward something greater than his troubles: the beauty of the Lord.

When David entered the Temple, he witnessed the sacrifices—the blood, the smoke—but he saw something beyond it. He beheld the holiness of God, a just God who does not turn his face away from sin. Yet, in that moment, he also saw a God of mercy. Instead of himself on the altar, an animal was provided in his place.

This foreshadows the ultimate sacrifice of Christ at the cross. There, we see the fullness of God’s beauty—not only in His justice but in His boundless mercy. Christ, stripped, whipped, bloodied, and hung upon a cross, bore the weight of sin to deliver us from our deepest troubles. He was there because of the violent slander against Him, because an army was raised to arrest Him. On that cross, for a brief moment, He cried out, “My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?” (Matthew 27:46) He experienced forsakenness so that we might never need to.

It is God being sent out so that we might be taken in. To behold His beauty is not passive—it requires intention. But as we face life’s struggles while gazing upon His grace, we realize just how magnificent He is.


In the face of anxiety, David’s final words offer a call to resilience: “Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage.” In a world filled with uncertainty, perhaps the most powerful response is not simply pushing aside fear, but knowing where to turn when it comes. For those struggling with anxiety, Psalm 27 offers a path to fearlessness—not because the storms disappear, but because we no longer face them alone.

The Story of St. Patrick

Patricious, later known as St. Patrick, was born around 387 AD to an aristocratic family in Briton. Raised as a Christian, he initially led a wildlife, only nominally adhering to his faith. At sixteen, Celtic pirates captured him and sold him into slavery in Ireland. Patrick worked for a druid, herding cattle, and during this time, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening. Isolated and surrounded by nature, he felt God’s presence deeply, leading him to pray up to a hundred times daily. This transformation did not go unnoticed by his captors.

Patrick’s captivity also allowed him to understand the Irish Celtic people, their language, and culture. He developed a love for them and hoped for their reconciliation with God. After six years, Patrick escaped slavery following a divine dream instructing him to find a ship ready to take him home. He eventually returned to Briton, where he trained for the priesthood, immersing himself in Scripture and theology.

Years later, another dream called him back to Ireland. An angel named Victor appeared with a letter from his former captors, pleading for his return. Interpreting this as his divine mission, Patrick was ordained a bishop and became Ireland’s first missionary around 432 AD. Despite the Irish Celts’ reputation for barbarism and human sacrifice, Patrick and his team reached out with love, respect for the better aspects of their culture, and unwavering faith. Their gentle yet bold approach led to the widespread acceptance of Christianity in Ireland.

Lessons from St. Patrick:

  1. God’s Presence in Suffering: Patrick’s traumatic experience as a slave brought him closer to God. His story reminds us that God can use our lowest moments to draw us nearer to Him. As the Apostle Peter says, “In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ” (1 Peter 1:6-7).
  2. Telling Others: Patrick returned to the very people who enslaved him, bringing them a message of hope and comfort. His actions exemplify how those comforted by God’s grace can comfort others with it. As the Apostle Peter also said, “Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind. Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing” (1 Peter 3:8–9).
  3. Community: Patrick’s deep sense of community made him an ideal missionary. He replicated the Celtic Irish’s communal life within his apostolic team, emphasizing that we are better together. As the author of Ecclesiastes says, “Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!” (Ecclesiastes 4:9–10).

Patrick’s legacy teaches us the importance of community, faith, and reaching out to one another with the gospel of Christ.

We’re all trying to find our way home

Luke 15

What does “home” mean to you? It’s a word rich with memories, sensations, and emotions. Home is where life’s most profound moments occur—a place of laughter, authenticity, even conflict and reconciliation. Yet, home can also feel elusive, especially when we change locations. The opening scene of a movie says, “All of life is a coming home. Salesmen, secretaries, coal miners, beekeepers, sword swallowers, all of us, all the restless hearts of the world, all trying to find a way home.”

This longing for home echoes a biblical truth: our hearts seek a spiritual home with God, our Father. Saint Augustine reminds us that our hearts are restless until they rest in God. We are spiritual exiles, longing for our true relationship with Him.

Jesus’ parable of the prodigal son illustrates this perfectly. Sin isn’t just about wrongdoing; it’s seeking fulfillment away from God. Before the prodigal wasted his father’s wealth on wild living, he positioned his heart away from his father. He asked his father to give him his inheritance early. Those words would have pierced his father’s heart. Only a son who wanted his father eradicated from his life would make such a request.

The father honors his son’s soul-crushing request. The prodigal squanders his father’s wealth. In trying to find himself outside his father’s home, he finds himself lost, miserable, and bankrupt. So, he decides to drag himself back home and beg his father to give him a job as a hired hand. Yet, when his father sees his tattered son from a distance, he runs to him. He embraces him, squeezing his son close to his chest. Then he throws a homecoming party, because this son who was lost has finally come home. This father reflects God’s unwavering loving grace toward all of his restless, wayward children. I invite you to read this parable yourself in the Bible (Luke 15).

This parable illustrates the grander story of the Bible. God gives Adam and Eve a perfect home. Adam and Eve decide to take what God gave them and try to find fulfillment outside of God’s will (Genesis 3). This action separates them from the Father. We ought not look down on them, because we all do the same (Romans 3:11). So, God, in his loving grace, pursues his children. He delivers Israel from slavery in Egypt to live with him in the freedom of the Promised Land. But, Israel distances herself from God. The nation turns to other gods and ends up in a foreign land away from God. God sends prophets to call them home. When they did not listen, he sends his very own Son (Luke 20). His Son left his home in heaven to bring God’s children home.

No matter how far we’ve strayed, God awaits, eager to welcome you back to him. Embrace the truth that Christ’s love always calls us home, no matter how far we have strayed.

Jesus Is Mocked Again (Mark 15:26-32)

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Unless you have ever reached your breaking point, you could not begin to understand?

There are times in life, when one hang up leads to another, one problem leads to more, difficulties and hardships pile up until you feel like a football player at the bottom of a pile up, feeling the air being squeezed out of your lungs, wondering if you’ll ever get your head above water again.

In those moments, even the strong stagger. We find ourselves weak, saying things we wish we could take back, doing things that only leave us worse off, and not doing things that might help. Self-control flies out the window. Our horse blinders go up, so that we can only see ourselves, and we become bling to the needs of others. We falter.

Then we see Jesus on his way to the cross:

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Hymn of the Month: “Revelation 19”

In honor of Black history month, our family chose “Revelation 19”, also known as “Hallelujah, Salvation and Glory”, as our February hymn of the month.

The Lord gave the Apostle John a vision when he was on the island of Patmos. John was living there as an exile, imprisoned for his testimony concerning our Lord Jesus Christ.

Babylon, in the Book of Revelation, represents a unified geo-political power that oppresses God’s Church. Heaven breaks forth in jubilant praise in Revelation 19:1–2, because Babylon, also called the great prostitute, has just been defeated once and for all. As John records:

            ‘Hallelujah!

            Salvation and glory and power belong to our God,

                        for his judgments are true and just;

            for he has judged the great prostitute

                        who corrupted the earth with her immorality,

            and has avenged on her the blood of his servants.’”

In this world, it often seems that God is losing. The wicked prosper, while the righteous suffer. Evil seems to prevail. Darkness surrounds us, and we wonder if the Light of Christ shall ever overcome. The main message of the Book of Revelation, for these reasons, serves as great encouragement for the church today and in any age. It tells us that Jesus shall win. Sin shall not ravage forever. Death shall not have the final word. Evil shall give an account at the judgement seat of God. The Light shall overcome. For Babylon, the great mythic oppressor of God’s people, shall fall, and a new age shall break forth, commencing with the Marriage Feast of the Lamb.

The Lord, our God, is indeed mighty and powerful. He shall avenge all that opposes him. His victory is our victory, and we who unite ourselves to him stand in his victory. So, let us join the heavenly chorus and sing praises to our God. For the Lord our God is mighty!

A. Jeffrey LaValley, a black gospel writer, wrote “Revelation 19” almost accidently. He never meant it to be a hit, but the song has become a staple in many gospel-music singing churches. LaValley once explained in an interview how the song came about:

“We were in communion service one Sunday evening in 1985, and the spirit was high. My pastor was standing in the pulpit with his Bible. He walked over to the organ. He flings the Bible on the organ and says, “Sing this.” I said, “Excuse me?” He said, “Sing this.” The Bible was turned to Revelation 19:1. […] The pastor walked back to his pulpit, and I didn’t know what to do, so I began singing the first melody that came into my mind. It was basically the first verse of the song. I sang the verse over and over. Finally the choir joined in unison, and then the congregation joined in, and everybody kept at it. I figured this was it, because I was going to forget the song and the people were going to forget it. But the sound man, who never taped communion service, just happened to tape that communion service. He gave a copy of the tape to me. At that point, we were preparing the His Eye Is On the Sparrow album and we needed a filler cut. So I took that tape and added the “For the Lord Our God is Mighty” section, and did the little descant, and taught it to the choir. […] And that’s how it all happened.”

Traditionally each part of this song is sung individually first. Then the parts are layered, starting with part 1, then adding part 2, and finally adding part 3. This creates a powerful effect, transporting our souls to rejoice in the glory and almighty power of God.

Lyrics

PART 1

Hallelujah, salvation, and glory

Honor, and power unto the Lord our God.

For the Lord our God is mighty.

Yes, the Lord our God is omnipotent.

The Lord our God, he is wonderful.

PART 2

All praises be to the King of Kings

And the Lord of Lords.

He is wonderful!

PART 3

Hal-le-lu-jah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, halle-lu-jah,

He is wonderful.

What a powerful declaration of God’s sovereignty over all things!

Jessica and I last fall had the experience of singing “Revelation 19” with thousands of other Christians in Nashville with Dwan Hill and The Choir Room. The rapturous power of the singing reverberated in my soul for weeks. I pray these words, which come from the great praise of Revelation 19, will be an encouragement to you.  

Bible Memory Verses

Revelation 19:1, ESV

“After this I heard what seemed to be the loud voice of a great multitude in heaven, crying out,

          ‘Hallelujah!

          Salvation and glory and power belong to our God…’”

You can listen to “Revelation 19” here:

Revelation 19: 1 (youtube.com)

If you would be interested in listening to some of our family’s previous month’s hymns, feel free to check out our playlist on Spotify:

Birbeck Family Playlist

The Good News Came When the Curse Came (Genesis 3:14-15)

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Genesis 3:14-15

In the beginning God created the heavens and earth and all was very good (Genesis 1:1, 31). There is an inherent goodness about all things God makes. A beautiful scenic overlook, the graceful flight of a bald eagle, the wonders of the human brain, a charitable act, these are all glimpses of the goodness of God’s creation.

Yet, despite these glimpses of the goodness of God’s creation, it appears that what was made good has been marred. Continue reading

The Ark and the Way (Genesis 6:1-22), Part 3 of Jesus in Genesis

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Genesis 6:1-22

Ancient stone towers litter an ancient village located at the southernmost tip of Greece. The stone towers served as family homes, at a time when the village was self-governed. The towers not only protected the village from outside invaders, but protected the villagers from each other. The families of that village had turned family feuds into a blood sport. When one family offended another, they would hurl rocks and boiling oil from the height their tower on to the other family. The families built higher and higher towers to gain the advantage; the cycle went on until the village nearly destroyed itself. Continue reading

Are humans good? (Genesis 1:26-27)

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Genesis 1:26-27

Are human beings generally good or generally evil? How we answer that question affects how we view ourselves, view others, rear our children, and even how governments are formed? Continue reading